Reminders

I got up early this morning & went to seminary! Sister Smith asked me to tell that students about my mission. How I decided to go & what I gained from it. It was a HUGE blessing to be able to once again reflect & bare my testimony.

I went to work today. This wasn't the first time I went to work since I've been back but it is the first time that anything of consequence happened while I was there; or at least while I was traveling home.

The first thing that happened was, we were all sitting there minding our own business while the water aerobics class was going on and one of the guards runs back & telling us that a cop pulled his gun outside. What?! So of  course we all went to see. Weeelll we really didn't see all that much. Just the cop arresting some punk. But I walked back to my seat laughing because it just reminded me of how scary the cops are here and how un-scary the cops are in the UK. hehe

Then I started walking home. And all throughout the park there are young kids & not so young kids all playing football aka soccer. My mind was blown for a little while & in my head I was like "Wait...isn't this America? Shouldn't they all be playing baseball?" Yes they should but I decided to just relish in the fact that it looked like my home. Well the one on the other side of the world at least.

Playing football in the rain with the Elders

So I kept walking because I'm no good at football and I was really hungry. So I'm walking down the street minding my own business & BAM I see some hydrangeas. Now that's kinda silly don't you think? To notices some silly flowers. Well not when like everyone that lives in Scotland & Ireland has them & you've spent countless hours staring at them & trying to count how many different hues of purple/blue/pink they can be while tracting.

Why is any of this important? They are all just silly little things. But they remind me that Heavenly Father is aware of me. He is watching me & taking care of me. He loves me & knows my concerns & fears. All these little things about my mission remind me of the big things; like how He took care of everything when it felt like nothing was within my power to control. It reminds me that He is still in control & is still taking care of everything even though nothing is in my control. I'm so glad that He's taking care of my life. Whenever I try to take care of it it just turns into a big mess!

No Pain

A rainy day in Scotland

I'm sitting here trying to think what to write. Nothing. Don't you hate that? Nothing of consequence happened today. Oh besides the fact that my slave driver (aka my younger sister Rachel) made me get up at 8 & do P90X Cardio for the first time since I've been home. UGH. You would think that all that walking around in the rain on my mission might help with this whole working out thing, you know help me to not feel like I'm dying...nope. 

I guess its like they say. No pain....No gain. I like my old philosophy: No pain...no pain!

Andventure

I should be sleeping; but I've been trapped in the world of Hunger Games all day & the need to see how the series ends was greater then the need to sleep. I am addicted to them. It feels oddly like a relief to be so captivated by something so simple as books again. I'm sure lots of people think like this but I see everything in my head like my own personal movie. Because of this its extremely easy for me to get lost in my own little world...or a world that someone else makes up for me. I paint myself into the stories so tightly that it feels like real life. I love it.

There is on one problem with that. I have to come back out & into reality again.

In the Disney movie Beauty & the Beast; right after Gaston tries to get Belle to marry him she runs off into this field singing. I'm sure like a billion girls on the planet say this but the lyrics are what I feel when I get myself lost in the world of fantasy & have to come back out again.

She sings: "I want adventure in the great wide somewhere. I want it more then I can bare! And for once it might be grand, to have someone, understand. I want so much more then they've got planned."

That is me. Don't get me wrong I LOVE my life. I have a great one. I've been blessed more then I deserve! But sometimes (okay lots of the time) I sit back & think, life would be so fun if I was Katniss Everdeen, or Wanda (Stephanie Myers The Host) or even Hermione Granger. To live in a world that is filled with dangers & magic & things we've never dreamed of. Where good always wins.

Sometimes I hope that when I get to the Celestial Kingdom & gain the skill to build "worlds without number" that I'll be allowed to make worlds with wizards & universes with Jedi. And then I hope I get to go have adventures on them. I'm sure by the time I get to the CK though I'll be smarter then that & want different things.

I don't really know what the point of all this is tonight.  Maybe I just want people to see that I am bigger then they think I am. Though I'm probably the only one who thought I was small in the first place.

They say that life's what you make it. I guess its time for an adventure.

Don't Give Up

Today in Sacrament my father spoke about prayer and gaining a relationship with our Savior Jesus Christ. He started off talking about men from the New Testament, the rich young ruler & Peter, & spoke about how Peter had let the commandments help him know the Savior while the rich young ruler just obeyed the commandments.

And then he starts talking about Peter Anderson & I am transported. I am no longer in a chapel in California. I am walking home from the shopping center for lunch; my companion, Sister Oswald, is following close behind on the narrow  footpath. We are laughing like we always do. A man turns the corner; startling me a little.

"Can we give you a card sir?" Is the question that pops out of my mouth.
"Sure" comes the reply "What is it?"
"We are sharing how there is a prophet on earth today. Would that be important to you?" My approach is not very special. But the man, Peter Anderson accepts an appointment.

Sister Oswald & I 

I am in our tiny room. Laying on my bed trying to get rid of the headache that's been driving me crazy all week. Our joint teach Sister Green dropped us to go see Peter & I am frustrated. We've only gotten to see Peter once. Canceling on him could prove disastrous. So Sister Oswald makes the call as I listen carefully.  

"You've read all of 1st &2nd Nephi?!" Sister Oswald questions in awe. I sit bolt upright & lean closer.
"Wow that's amazing" is Sister Oswald's response. "Have you prayed about it?" I hold my breath during the pause. "Well I invite you to pray about what you have read Peter. I promise that the Lord will answer your prayers." And the conversation is ended.

And finally I land in a tiny apartment, sitting on a couch that threatens to eat if I sit back any further on it. I am listening is awe as Peter tells us his story. He read the Book of Mormon until 2 in the morning last night. He came to the conclusion that this book couldn't have been written by a 24 year old, uneducated, guy in upstate New York. So he did what he hadn't done in years. He got down on his knees & prayed. He asked Heavenly Father to forgive him us his sins & to let him know if the Book of Mormon was true.

Peter Anderson was baptized 3 weeks later. I was not there to see it. I was transferred; but Peter Anderson was our miracle.  Every missionary's dream. But for me he was more then that. Peter taught me about my Heavenly Father's love for His children. There is a quote; I don't know who said it "Heavenly Father will come as close as we are willing to let Him come." Peter Anderson spent YEARS running from our Heavenly Father. But not once, for one half of a second did Heavenly Father EVER give up on him.

And if we let Him, our LOVING Heavenly Father will be with us. Always.

<3 Becca Fisher

First Date!

So last night I had my first date since returning from my mission! The church is putting on a California wide YSA Conference this summer in August and as part of the conference they are having a bunch of summer activities for us; including three temple nights! 

So Derek Smith took me to dinner & then the temple for the YSA night! It was SUPER fun to spend time with my friend & to talk about our missions & such! Of course it felt a little awkward. The first time alone with a boy in a year & a half...kinda scary! But things went well...mostly because we are both RM's and we pretty much talked about our missions the whole time! If it had been anyone else I might've died of fright & awkwardness! 

We went to Wahoo's Fish Tacos! YUM! Well before that we got stuck in traffic on the 405 & then missed our exit because we were stuck in the car pool lane & then were slightly lost because the GPS took us to a different Wahoo's. Good times! :)

And then of course the temple was amazing! It was Derek's first time at LA temple & the biggest secession I've ever been too! It was really neat! And the Spirit was very strong. I love it there in the temple. So many things to learn & experience & feel! Mostly I just love that Heavenly Father loves us enough to give us temples. On my mission I met lots of Born-Again Christians. Don't get me wrong I love them & so does Heavenly Father, but I just don't really get their logic. Anyway near the end of my mission I met a lovely Born-Again couple & I think they are from the States but I could be too sure. But we got talking to them & I just kept getting the feeling that all they thought of God was that He was God & in charge. While that is true He is sooo much more then God! He is our Father!And He loves us with a PERFECT love! I kept trying to bare testimony that we can change & that we can become better through the Atonement of Jesus Christ but they didn't understand how God could want us to become like Him! SO I am grateful for the knowledge that the Heavenly Father WANTS  me to become like Him and for giving us temples which are one of the things (probably the greatest thing) that helps us to become like Him. 

So...do I still sound like a missionary? ;)

<3 Sister Becca Fisher

According to Plan

Oooook! So I've not been posting because, well I don't really have an excuse except for I've been SUPER  distracted by trying to catch up on some TV shows! haha!

Also things haven't really gone according to plan thus far coming home. (When do they ever go according to plan?) BUT tonight I got a HUGE blessing from my Father in Heaven. I can't tell you all the details because I don't know whose eyes see this but lets just say ahhh!!! SOOO excited right now!

That is something I LOVE so much about Heavenly Father. If we just TRUST Him, He will take care of everything for us! And I know that even if things don't turn out the way I want them to then He has something better in mind. Because He loves me & He knows whats best for me. So I will continue to trust.

<3 Becca Fisher

For Forever!

Good day today blogger world! It started out that I went to a CPR/First Aid class to be certified so I can work at the pool this summer! Whoot whoot!

Then I wrote my talk for tomorrow. Its all about Gratitude & you'll have to wait along with everyone else to see what I have to say about that but in the mean time I like this video =]

This evening I went to the Lakewood 3rd Ward Young Women Camp Fundraiser. Country Western was the theme! They fed us dinner & we had quarter games &  line dancing & pictures & all kinds of fun stuff! It was a BRILLIANT party! The YW did such a good job. The decorations were perfect & everyone had fun! I loved seeing the Dads all get up & play the quarter games that were meant for the kids.

That is one of the reasons why I love this church. We can all be ourselves; well most of the time. No one is perfect. But in this ward we can usually be ourselves. They are like my big extended family just as those who I met on my mission are...and I cannot wait for everyone to meet when we get to the Celestial Kingdom its going to be one party!

So that is what I am most grateful for tonight. Good food, good friends, amazing family & the chance to have them all for forever!

<3 Becca Fisher