What a day. It started off kinda terrifying. In Spanish my professor came to me before class and asked me to give the prayer. I swear I almost died right there...so lamely I was like "Ummm I don't know how" And he was fine with that but he is definitely coming back to ask me again. To make the class even worse he had half of us writing on the board today translating what he said. Guess who got picked. Yup me. And THEN he kept picking on my answers which of course were always wrong. And sure everyone else's answers were wrong too but I don't really know what the matter with me is in that class. I have like slight panic attacks everyday because I feel like an idiot. Seriously I used to LOVE Spanish but now it just makes me feel sick to my stomach. But I'm going to my first tutor secession tomorrow so I hope it gets better.
Luckily the day got a lot better. I miss my sewing class but it was good b/c I got to sleep which I needed so bad! And I just chilled with my roommies until work and then devotional which was all about Grace! I love that topic...I wish I understood it more of course but what I really want is to study it more.
After school I did my homework & then went to Kenzine's Ultimate Frisbee game with Effie and then we went to our service brother's house for a while. I just love our service brothers. At the beginning of the semester the ward assigned us an apartment to do service for them all the time & I was like "Well that's not service if its forced" but of course as I tried to put my pride in check & do as my leaders asked charity worked its magic & they are now some of our best friends! I love when that happens.I just love spending time with them! They have a wonderful Spirit in their home and bring a wonderful Spirit into ours when they come over.
So even though the day started out rough the Lord gave me a happy ending to today! Life is great!
<3 Becca
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Monday, October 1, 2012
In His Hands
So I've been meaning to write this entry for sometime but I've just been to lazy. Sad but true.
Anyway, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life right now and trying to see the Lord's hand more in my life. Surprisingly its been really easy to do that recently.
I don't know why it continues to surprise me that the Lord is going to give me exactly what i need to learn & grow & be happy & become more like Him as long as that is the desire of my heart.
So you know how I told you that all of my roommates are under 20? Weeeelll to be completely honest I wasn't all that happy about that when I first found out. I had every intention of going out and making other friends who were my age and/or just sitting in my room sulking the whole semester.
But, as usual, the Lord knew best. My roommates are the BEST! I cannot tell you how much each of them have been exactly what I needed at this time in my life. They don't even know the things that they have helped me to overcome! They all have such a strong Spirit and makes me want to be a better person when I am around them.
AND since the Lord never does things halfway not only has He given me the exact roommates that I need but He has also given us the exact friends that I need. I cannot tell you how many times we have been sitting in our apartment and one of our friends says the exact things that I need to hear at the exact time I need to hear it.
Maybe no one else can understand this post buuuttt to sum up I am grateful to the Lord for knowing & giving me what I need to grow the best rather then giving me what I want and/or think will help me grow. I'm am grateful that He knows me better then I know myself. Trusting Him & putting my life in His hands makes things so much easier.
So when things aren't going the way you think they should just remember...That's where faith comes in.
<3 Becca
Anyway, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life right now and trying to see the Lord's hand more in my life. Surprisingly its been really easy to do that recently.
I don't know why it continues to surprise me that the Lord is going to give me exactly what i need to learn & grow & be happy & become more like Him as long as that is the desire of my heart.
So you know how I told you that all of my roommates are under 20? Weeeelll to be completely honest I wasn't all that happy about that when I first found out. I had every intention of going out and making other friends who were my age and/or just sitting in my room sulking the whole semester.
But, as usual, the Lord knew best. My roommates are the BEST! I cannot tell you how much each of them have been exactly what I needed at this time in my life. They don't even know the things that they have helped me to overcome! They all have such a strong Spirit and makes me want to be a better person when I am around them.
AND since the Lord never does things halfway not only has He given me the exact roommates that I need but He has also given us the exact friends that I need. I cannot tell you how many times we have been sitting in our apartment and one of our friends says the exact things that I need to hear at the exact time I need to hear it.
Maybe no one else can understand this post buuuttt to sum up I am grateful to the Lord for knowing & giving me what I need to grow the best rather then giving me what I want and/or think will help me grow. I'm am grateful that He knows me better then I know myself. Trusting Him & putting my life in His hands makes things so much easier.
So when things aren't going the way you think they should just remember...That's where faith comes in.
<3 Becca
Monday, September 24, 2012
Story of My Life
Man it has been such a long day! Complete with stressing over school, work, running around like a crazy woman and staring at my computer screen forever trying to fill out my advertising study guide. My eyes hurt from this screen but I got it all done.
Most exciting thing of the day: I got to meet the director of social events here on campus AND she is really excited about my groups event proposal. I'm going to be the event manager which means I'll probably get pretty close to the others that work with social events. Also I get to go on a retreat this weekend with them. It'll be fun I'm sure. Mostly I'm just excited to be doing events.
Awkward RM Moment of the day: So I have this friend named Andrew and he has a roommate named Matt. Matt is pretty cute but more then that he just really seems like a good guy. Like Joe good. And I met him for the second time last night when we went stadium singing & then he came over to our house. Then after he left Kenzie told me that Matt wants to ask me out on a date and I'm like "whoot whoot!" So of course now that I know this and I'm a little excited about it who do I see while I'm running around campus like a crazy woman trying to find someone in activities to talk to? Matt. Grrreeeaaaatt! So yeah I'm coming out of the activities office all frazzled when I hear my name. I turn around & there he is. Now not only am I frazzled but I'm embarrassed so all I can manage is a half flirtatious "heeeeyyy!" then he asks me where I'm heading. "The Library" and then we stand there. Now looking back I know that was my cue to be like "Where are you going?" buuuttt nothing came outta my mouth. So we kinda stood there awkwardly until I was like "Well I've gotta go." Yep it was awkward. Story of my life!
Welp bed time!!
<3 Becca
Most exciting thing of the day: I got to meet the director of social events here on campus AND she is really excited about my groups event proposal. I'm going to be the event manager which means I'll probably get pretty close to the others that work with social events. Also I get to go on a retreat this weekend with them. It'll be fun I'm sure. Mostly I'm just excited to be doing events.
Awkward RM Moment of the day: So I have this friend named Andrew and he has a roommate named Matt. Matt is pretty cute but more then that he just really seems like a good guy. Like Joe good. And I met him for the second time last night when we went stadium singing & then he came over to our house. Then after he left Kenzie told me that Matt wants to ask me out on a date and I'm like "whoot whoot!" So of course now that I know this and I'm a little excited about it who do I see while I'm running around campus like a crazy woman trying to find someone in activities to talk to? Matt. Grrreeeaaaatt! So yeah I'm coming out of the activities office all frazzled when I hear my name. I turn around & there he is. Now not only am I frazzled but I'm embarrassed so all I can manage is a half flirtatious "heeeeyyy!" then he asks me where I'm heading. "The Library" and then we stand there. Now looking back I know that was my cue to be like "Where are you going?" buuuttt nothing came outta my mouth. So we kinda stood there awkwardly until I was like "Well I've gotta go." Yep it was awkward. Story of my life!
Welp bed time!!
<3 Becca
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Master the Tempest is Raging
So it has been SUCH a busy weekend! I worked like all day on Friday & then Kenzine, Effie & I went to a dance where we met some boys & then after we hopped in the back of one of their trucks and they took us to the haunted swings & the haunted cabin! It was so much fun! Also one of them (Steven) is super cute & was totally flirting with me.
Then after they invited us to go hiking with them on Saturday. So of course I HAVE to go since there is a cute boy going to be there even though I hate hiking. So I was really scared that I was going to make a fool outta myself & die while trying to climb this mountain. But my roommate Cathy came with us and she was pretty terrified of heights and so it was pretty slippy so she had to stop a lot which was fine with me & then when we got to the top & it was flat I was walking around that mountain like a boss. LOL The boys were pretty impressed with me. But Steven wasn't as flirtatiousness as Friday night but I decided that its fine.
Church was good today. I taught in Mission Prep call because I am an Assistant Ward Mission Leader! I am so excited for this calling! I've been assigned a companion and she & I are actually going to teach the lessons to one of the apartments in our ward! I'm so stoked for it!
Tonight we went Stadium Singing. I haven't done that in AGES! And I am glad that I did.
We sang this song & while we were the Spirit touched me how the words of this song are what the Lord has done for me!
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Then after they invited us to go hiking with them on Saturday. So of course I HAVE to go since there is a cute boy going to be there even though I hate hiking. So I was really scared that I was going to make a fool outta myself & die while trying to climb this mountain. But my roommate Cathy came with us and she was pretty terrified of heights and so it was pretty slippy so she had to stop a lot which was fine with me & then when we got to the top & it was flat I was walking around that mountain like a boss. LOL The boys were pretty impressed with me. But Steven wasn't as flirtatiousness as Friday night but I decided that its fine.
Church was good today. I taught in Mission Prep call because I am an Assistant Ward Mission Leader! I am so excited for this calling! I've been assigned a companion and she & I are actually going to teach the lessons to one of the apartments in our ward! I'm so stoked for it!
Tonight we went Stadium Singing. I haven't done that in AGES! And I am glad that I did.
We sang this song & while we were the Spirit touched me how the words of this song are what the Lord has done for me!
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Master, the Tempest Is Raging
1. Master, the tempest is raging!
The billows are tossing high!
The sky is o’ershadowed with blackness.
No shelter or help is nigh.
Carest thou not that we perish?
How canst thou lie asleep
When each moment so madly is threat’ning
A grave in the angry deep?
The billows are tossing high!
The sky is o’ershadowed with blackness.
No shelter or help is nigh.
Carest thou not that we perish?
How canst thou lie asleep
When each moment so madly is threat’ning
A grave in the angry deep?
[Chorus]
The winds and the waves shall obey thy will:
Peace, be still.
Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea
Or demons or men or whatever it be,
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean and earth and skies.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, be still; peace, be still.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, peace, be still.
The winds and the waves shall obey thy will:
Peace, be still.
Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea
Or demons or men or whatever it be,
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean and earth and skies.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, be still; peace, be still.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, peace, be still.
2. Master, with anguish of spirit
I bow in my grief today.
The depths of my sad heart are troubled.
Oh, waken and save, I pray!
Torrents of sin and of anguish
Sweep o’er my sinking soul,
And I perish! I perish! dear Master.
Oh, hasten and take control!
I bow in my grief today.
The depths of my sad heart are troubled.
Oh, waken and save, I pray!
Torrents of sin and of anguish
Sweep o’er my sinking soul,
And I perish! I perish! dear Master.
Oh, hasten and take control!
3. Master, the terror is over.
The elements sweetly rest.
Earth’s sun in the calm lake is mirrored,
And heaven’s within my breast.
Linger, O blessed Redeemer!
Leave me alone no more,
And with joy I shall make the blest harbor
And rest on the blissful shore.
The elements sweetly rest.
Earth’s sun in the calm lake is mirrored,
And heaven’s within my breast.
Linger, O blessed Redeemer!
Leave me alone no more,
And with joy I shall make the blest harbor
And rest on the blissful shore.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Standing Up
I know, I know...I didn't write for like the rest of the entire summer. But don't worry I know exactly what happened while I was away. It went like this:
Work, eat, sleep, repeat for 5 days, GO DANCING, church. Now repeat that for however long its been since I've posted. =]
Anyway, guess what! I am back in Rexburg! Fun right? I think yes. So the semester officially started a week and a half ago. Between classes & work I've been CRAZY busy! I'm literally on campus from 7:45am til about 4:30pm everyday. Its great fun. A nine hour day...makes me feel like I'm back on my mission.
I've got 5 roommates (of course) and they are all under 20. But they keep me from being a stick in the mud & just sitting in my room whenever I actually do get some free time.
I'm trying to think if there is anything else to really tell you...nope not really. I guess I could tell you what classes I've got.
Spanish 201: I don't remember ANYTHING from before my mish...I've started praying for the gift of tongues so I can get through this one. There's also Advertising Principles, Home Decor Sewing, Interior Design annnnddd...wait for it...Events Management! So stoked for Events. We are currently planning a huge game for campus to play near the end of the semester (more details about that later) and I am sooo excited for it. Events are truly my passion.
Oh and I'm working for parking services this semester. So basically I sit in the office & do my homework until someone with a question...or lets be honest a complaint that they got a ticket...comes along & I get to help them. I love it! I know lots of people don't like it when people are all upset and stuff like that but I kind of do. Like today there was this girl who called the office. She was all upset because she got a $50 ticket for parking where she wasn't supposed to park. Long story short she was/is NOT going to pay this ticket and she wanted me to just take it off her account. One I don't have the clearance to do that and two even if I didn't the girl has like 10 previous parking tickets she was not as dumb about parking as she made herself out to be. But also (I'm getting to why I like people yelling at me) it wouldn't be right to just let it go. She did something wrong & she has to pay the consequences, and I love the feeling of being able to stand up for what I know is the right thing! It is such a powerful feeling!
I wish that more people could feel that feeling. I wish I remembered that feeling when it comes to sticking up for my standards sometimes. I think if we all could remember that feeling of power & sound mind (see 2 Tim 1:7) then it wouldn't be so hard sometimes to be different. To say "no I'm not going to do that. I don't think that's right" But that's what being human is I guess. Forgetting those things & only thinking about what others will think of us.
I'm going to make it a goal to always remember the feelings I get when I stand up for what is right when I'm in that critical moment & despite my fears I'm going to stand up for whats right. You're all probably good at this already but feel free to join me! =]
<3 Becca
Work, eat, sleep, repeat for 5 days, GO DANCING, church. Now repeat that for however long its been since I've posted. =]
Anyway, guess what! I am back in Rexburg! Fun right? I think yes. So the semester officially started a week and a half ago. Between classes & work I've been CRAZY busy! I'm literally on campus from 7:45am til about 4:30pm everyday. Its great fun. A nine hour day...makes me feel like I'm back on my mission.
I've got 5 roommates (of course) and they are all under 20. But they keep me from being a stick in the mud & just sitting in my room whenever I actually do get some free time.
I'm trying to think if there is anything else to really tell you...nope not really. I guess I could tell you what classes I've got.
Spanish 201: I don't remember ANYTHING from before my mish...I've started praying for the gift of tongues so I can get through this one. There's also Advertising Principles, Home Decor Sewing, Interior Design annnnddd...wait for it...Events Management! So stoked for Events. We are currently planning a huge game for campus to play near the end of the semester (more details about that later) and I am sooo excited for it. Events are truly my passion.
Oh and I'm working for parking services this semester. So basically I sit in the office & do my homework until someone with a question...or lets be honest a complaint that they got a ticket...comes along & I get to help them. I love it! I know lots of people don't like it when people are all upset and stuff like that but I kind of do. Like today there was this girl who called the office. She was all upset because she got a $50 ticket for parking where she wasn't supposed to park. Long story short she was/is NOT going to pay this ticket and she wanted me to just take it off her account. One I don't have the clearance to do that and two even if I didn't the girl has like 10 previous parking tickets she was not as dumb about parking as she made herself out to be. But also (I'm getting to why I like people yelling at me) it wouldn't be right to just let it go. She did something wrong & she has to pay the consequences, and I love the feeling of being able to stand up for what I know is the right thing! It is such a powerful feeling!
I wish that more people could feel that feeling. I wish I remembered that feeling when it comes to sticking up for my standards sometimes. I think if we all could remember that feeling of power & sound mind (see 2 Tim 1:7) then it wouldn't be so hard sometimes to be different. To say "no I'm not going to do that. I don't think that's right" But that's what being human is I guess. Forgetting those things & only thinking about what others will think of us.
I'm going to make it a goal to always remember the feelings I get when I stand up for what is right when I'm in that critical moment & despite my fears I'm going to stand up for whats right. You're all probably good at this already but feel free to join me! =]
<3 Becca
Thursday, July 19, 2012
I'll Be There Soon!
Today Rexburg is calling my name. Its only a little over a month before I go but I find myself longing for "the bubble" and the security it brings. It might have something to do with my need for change about every six months. I know it hasn't been 6 months since a big changed happened but the mission got me used to at least some type of change every 6 weeks and its definitely been longer then that.
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Maybe its because Rexburg provides a never ending supply of social life that I seem to be lacking in here. Not that I was all that social before my mission, but it was easier to pretend that I was.
Maybe its because sometimes, like today, I feel like I'm playing the waiting game. Hanging out at home waiting for school to start. Feels like I'm just waiting around for real life to start again. I've got bunches & bunches of plans but they all kinda rely on my graduating in April.
I know what you're all thinking. Live in the moment Becca. Enjoy the relaxing summer while you can; it only gets crazier from here. I've never been a "live in the moment" type person. I always worry about the past & the future. I'm working on it.
I know that I could feel totally different tomorrow & be in love with California again. I also know that I will definitley feel different when I see the 1st snowfall come winter & I'll be thinking "why the heck did I ever leave sunny Southern California" But for tonight...keep calling Rexburg, I'll be there soon!
<3 Becca
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Opening Doors!
So I know, I know nothing from me for like a lot of days & then two posts in one day. I just wanted to say; you know what I said about the whole "when you have the faith to close a window Heavenly Father opens a door for you." Well just so you all know...yep He opens doors!!
Also for all you new RMs out there (I know quite a few that got home today). Taking a leap of faith & going to activities that might scare you a wee bit because you feel awkward totally pays off! I did that tonight & guess what...a boy asked for my number! whoot whoot! A small nevertheless awesome tender mercy!
<3 Becca
Also for all you new RMs out there (I know quite a few that got home today). Taking a leap of faith & going to activities that might scare you a wee bit because you feel awkward totally pays off! I did that tonight & guess what...a boy asked for my number! whoot whoot! A small nevertheless awesome tender mercy!
<3 Becca
Nienie
I'm not going to give you any excuses as to why I haven't posted. Just know this; when Heavenly Father asks you to close a window He will always open a door for you. At least that's what I'm hoping He's doing its still to early to tell but I'll let you know how it goes. ;)
So for now a shout out. This blog is called Nienie Dialogues. Stephanie Nielson is a HUGE inspiration to me. She helped me to be brave enough to go on a mission and to be honest she's a big reason I started this blog. She probably doesn't know I exist but that's okay. I highly encourage you all to go read her blog. You will be amazed with her story! Its way better then mine!
So Nie, you will probably never read this but thank you. Thank you for following the Spirit & for sharing your message of hope with others. You have helped me greatly & I'm sure so many others feel the same.
Becca
So for now a shout out. This blog is called Nienie Dialogues. Stephanie Nielson is a HUGE inspiration to me. She helped me to be brave enough to go on a mission and to be honest she's a big reason I started this blog. She probably doesn't know I exist but that's okay. I highly encourage you all to go read her blog. You will be amazed with her story! Its way better then mine!
So Nie, you will probably never read this but thank you. Thank you for following the Spirit & for sharing your message of hope with others. You have helped me greatly & I'm sure so many others feel the same.
Becca
Monday, July 9, 2012
2nd Place
We did lots of things including going to to Sea World on Friday. I loved spending time with my family. It was the first time in a long time that we've all been together with no one else around. Yesterday was probably the best for me. After church we just all chilled out at home, played games and laughed until we cried.
Laughing is the best I think; it heals everything. Family is also the best. But I've told you all that before.
So now I have a question for everyone. What is your best Fourth of July memory? Because although my last post was all about Counsins Week and that is my favorite 4th memory this 4th of July come in at a very close 2nd! :)
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Cousins Week
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've got a legit excuse this time. My big sister Emily & her family came to stay with us so I was kicked outta my nice warm bed & onto the floor of my sisters room. So I usually write my blog at night but my sister's go to sleep a little earlier & I don't want to keep them up.
Anyway not that you needed to know all of that but whatev.
A lot...well kinda a lot has happened in the past few days. I'm not gonna go into detail but it involves a certain boy with the same last name as me and I am pretty darn happy about it. :)
BUT today is Independence Day so there is no time for details because this my friends in one of my favorite holidays! Why you ask? Weeelll for me it means family.
When I was little my Grandparents decided that they wanted all their grand kids to grow up together and know and love each other. So they came up with Cousins Week. Every summer around the 4th of July their four daughters would drive up to their 5 acre property in Northern California drop us grand kids and leave us there for a few weeks.
Let me tell you it was an amazing time! We would play in the "woods", build forts, do crafts for service, help cut down trees and swim at least 5 hours a day. It was a blast. And we were always there during the 4th of July. I remember a wide variety of things we used to do to celebrate. A few years we went to this big cliff and played up there & watched the fireworks from a distant park. Then we met "Uncle" Bob who lived near a park that had fireworks so we went to his house & played with there kids & watched from there lawn. Then we started going to the park itself where we'd dominate in every competition that they had so we could get sodas, hamburgers & hot dogs to stuff our faces with before we watched the fireworks explode right above us.
Though Cousins Week has officially stopped since we've all grown up they are still some of my greatest memories. So tonight I want to dedicate this post to my Grandparents...who had the wisdom, love & courage to put up with us crazy kids each summer.
They taught me the importance of family & love. Which brings us to today. My whole family was together again today. For the first time in ages. It felt amazing! We all loved watching my niece Sadie get so excited for fireworks and I just loved being with those I love the most. I couldn't ask for a better way to celebrate. In a way it was very different from Cousins Week and I miss that tradition very much. But in a more important way it was exactly like Cousins Week; filled with love and laughter.
I hope you all enjoyed this day as much as I did.
Anyway not that you needed to know all of that but whatev.
A lot...well kinda a lot has happened in the past few days. I'm not gonna go into detail but it involves a certain boy with the same last name as me and I am pretty darn happy about it. :)
BUT today is Independence Day so there is no time for details because this my friends in one of my favorite holidays! Why you ask? Weeelll for me it means family.
When I was little my Grandparents decided that they wanted all their grand kids to grow up together and know and love each other. So they came up with Cousins Week. Every summer around the 4th of July their four daughters would drive up to their 5 acre property in Northern California drop us grand kids and leave us there for a few weeks.
Let me tell you it was an amazing time! We would play in the "woods", build forts, do crafts for service, help cut down trees and swim at least 5 hours a day. It was a blast. And we were always there during the 4th of July. I remember a wide variety of things we used to do to celebrate. A few years we went to this big cliff and played up there & watched the fireworks from a distant park. Then we met "Uncle" Bob who lived near a park that had fireworks so we went to his house & played with there kids & watched from there lawn. Then we started going to the park itself where we'd dominate in every competition that they had so we could get sodas, hamburgers & hot dogs to stuff our faces with before we watched the fireworks explode right above us.
Though Cousins Week has officially stopped since we've all grown up they are still some of my greatest memories. So tonight I want to dedicate this post to my Grandparents...who had the wisdom, love & courage to put up with us crazy kids each summer.
They taught me the importance of family & love. Which brings us to today. My whole family was together again today. For the first time in ages. It felt amazing! We all loved watching my niece Sadie get so excited for fireworks and I just loved being with those I love the most. I couldn't ask for a better way to celebrate. In a way it was very different from Cousins Week and I miss that tradition very much. But in a more important way it was exactly like Cousins Week; filled with love and laughter.
I hope you all enjoyed this day as much as I did.
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Just a Good Day!
Oh what a day! It has been an awesome one that is foorr sure!
For starters Matthew & I crashed the Youth Conference and went on a hike with Mom, Dad & all the youth! We hiked some where in Palos Verdes down to the beach & back up the hill. It was fun & the scenery was beautiful!
That took up most of the day.
Then I came home & my good friend Dan Brown asked if I wanted to go with him & some friends & just hang out at Downtown Disney...of course I said yes. I asked him to pick me up & he comes with two of his guy friends. Jeff & Matt. So me & three guys went & hung out. I felt a tiny bit awkward at first but after a little while I was fine.
It was a lot of fun and Dan's uber cute friend Matt and I talked for a while & seemed to really hit it off. He even got outta the car to hug me. Super cute. Get this though...his full name is Matthew Fisher. How weird is that?
Story time: So, as soon as I got in Matt's truck I felt around for my phone & it was no where to be found. No joke I was freaking a little bit. But I figured that I'd just forgot it at home. So we went about our merry way & I forgot all about it until I got home & went to look for my phone. Still no where to be found. Now I was really freaking out. So I called it from my mom's phone and I still can't hear it or anything, but then I get a call on my mom's phone from my phone! It was Dan Brown...I totally dropped it in the truck. I swear to you it was not on purpose! So these gentlemen drove back to my house to give me my phone & Matt came out & hugged me again. And then I get in the house & look at my phone. They put Matt's number in there...and took a picture. Again uber cute & exciting...so I guess we'll see what happens.
<3 Becca
Friday, June 29, 2012
Believe Him
So I was at work today...pretty much all day. And there is a new Senior Guard named Vince. I like working with him a lot, he makes it fun.
Today after the line was done & we sat down and then he asked me the dreaded question. "How old are you?" Ugh can I tell you how much I HATE that question!?! Like a LOT! I know, I know I'm only 24 and young and should not hate that question already but I really don't like remembering that I am almost past my sell-by date as Sister Graves would call it.
Soo let me tell you something awesome. I'm sitting here writing this, feeling sorry for myself and feeling a little cranky that I am growing/grew up so fast. And then all of the sudden the Spirit was like "Uhhhh no. You are amazing. It doesn't matter that you're 24 and single. Its gonna work out so don't you worry your pretty little head!" Yep thats what the Lord just told me...sooo I decided that I am going to believe Him!
It reminds me of the last day of my mission. I was eating the "last supper" in the mission home with a bunch of Elders & somehow the topic came up about marriage and how some girls go because they aren't married. Its something that I struggled with my whole mission; knowing if I had come out for the right reasons or done it just because I wasn't married. So on the last day of my mission the Lord told me "You didn't come on a mission because you aren't married. You aren't married because I needed you to come on a mission." I'm serious, it was those exact words. The Spirit was strong and peaceful and I'll never forget it.
So I will have to keep reminding myself as I go through this next little bit of life that the Lord is in control. I'm sorry if you get bored with my ramblings about it but you have to know that marriage has always been a main focus in my life.
Just remember people the Lord know's whats best...I mean of course He does. He's God isn't He!? Its time to start trusting Him a little more I think. Give Him the control. I'm not saying that it will be easy. Life rarely ever is; but it will be a whole heck of a lot easier then trying to do it all yourself. I promise.
Plus, Vince was surprised that I was so old, not that I was so young. :)
<3 Becca
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Trip Down Memory Lane
Got a letter for this guy today!
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| Elder Horlacher on his birthday in Limerick, Ireland |
He and I become good friends on the mission! He was in my MTC group & then we served in Paisley Zone & shared Limerick Branch at the end of my mission. He taught me a lot...especially about faith. He probably has more faith then anyone I've ever met in person. He's got a lot of health issues but he is ALWAYS happy and just loves life. He completely trusts that the Lord will take care of him in every way. I wish I was more like that.
Have you guys seen this movie? If you haven't you should. I did today & it transported me back to Bonny Scotland! I practically melted in my seat listening to their beautiful accents! And I know its cartoon but the scenery really is that beautifully perfect!
See I told you it's gorgeous! Yup...I miss it.
<3 Becca
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Internet Fast
So our internet fast is officially over! Finally! Its still a little touchy for my computer but everyone else's works just fine so I get to mooch off them for the time being!
Something I learned (or was reminded of I should say) from this forced fast was how much I LOVE my family. Because of the internet being down we of course spent the time we are on the computer together.
We took a bike ride down to the beach on Saturday. It was kinda longer then I expected & I am totally sunburned but it was super fun!
We played games and watched movies! It turned out to be a really fun week!
Sunday, June 24, 2012
I'm Still Here!
Okkk just so you all know I haven't forgotten you. The internet at my house has been out for a week now and there seems to be no hope for it coming back on anytime soon.
You would think that being an RM I'd be totally fine with this. That I could live with the fact that I'm not connected to everyone that I know (since I don't have a smart phone & my computer is the only way that is possible). False.
I have friends in Scotland & Ireland now people! I miss them and I can't exactly call them on the telly. That is not in my budget.
Thank goodness for Starbucks & free WiFi.
More updates on life without the internet to come soon...hopefully.
You would think that being an RM I'd be totally fine with this. That I could live with the fact that I'm not connected to everyone that I know (since I don't have a smart phone & my computer is the only way that is possible). False.
I have friends in Scotland & Ireland now people! I miss them and I can't exactly call them on the telly. That is not in my budget.
Thank goodness for Starbucks & free WiFi.
More updates on life without the internet to come soon...hopefully.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
No Fear
This weekend I have been addicted to a new show...Jane by Design. Its about this girl who is going against all odds to achieve her dream of being a fashion designer.
I've talked about this before but often I think about my choice of career and how impossible it seems. One of the HUGE reasons I love this show is because this girl just doesn't care. She knows what she wants and what makes her happy and she just does it!
I want to be more like that. Events/Parties/Weddings make me extremely happy. Nothing else should matter. Of course I know that I do not live in TV land. It is going to be much harder for me then it is for dear Jane. But that doesn't mean it should stop me or make me afraid.
So time to get serious. Time to make this dream a reality. Starting today I will be researching Event Bushiness' that I could possibly get an internship with. Only one more year left of university, then its out into the big bad world of party's!
I've talked about this before but often I think about my choice of career and how impossible it seems. One of the HUGE reasons I love this show is because this girl just doesn't care. She knows what she wants and what makes her happy and she just does it!
I want to be more like that. Events/Parties/Weddings make me extremely happy. Nothing else should matter. Of course I know that I do not live in TV land. It is going to be much harder for me then it is for dear Jane. But that doesn't mean it should stop me or make me afraid.
So time to get serious. Time to make this dream a reality. Starting today I will be researching Event Bushiness' that I could possibly get an internship with. Only one more year left of university, then its out into the big bad world of party's!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Week at a Glance
So its been a long week (obviously since I haven't even had time to post) so I'll start at the beginning because its all to good to miss!
Friday: Oh what a good day! In the late morning/early afternoon Lori & I went shopping for summer dresses. She got a fab dress & I couldn't find anything. But its okay because I really don't have the money for a new dress anyway & I already had one at home that I was gonna wear!
Then that night we went to the dance!! I promise you internet world this was like the BEST dance ever! Usually Lori and I get there first & start dancing because we don't care what anyone thinks we just wanna dance and then people usually don't come over & hang with us. Well we still got there before everyone but this time we decided to go into the middle of everyone instead of on the outside & all our friends came & danced with us & it was just so much fun! Then there was In-N-Out after wards. Yum! I've missed that place a LOT!
I guess what made Friday night so awesome is maybe for the first time since I've been back I didn't feel like the loser awkward RM! I felt like myself again. It feels good.
Friday: Oh what a good day! In the late morning/early afternoon Lori & I went shopping for summer dresses. She got a fab dress & I couldn't find anything. But its okay because I really don't have the money for a new dress anyway & I already had one at home that I was gonna wear!
Then that night we went to the dance!! I promise you internet world this was like the BEST dance ever! Usually Lori and I get there first & start dancing because we don't care what anyone thinks we just wanna dance and then people usually don't come over & hang with us. Well we still got there before everyone but this time we decided to go into the middle of everyone instead of on the outside & all our friends came & danced with us & it was just so much fun! Then there was In-N-Out after wards. Yum! I've missed that place a LOT!
I guess what made Friday night so awesome is maybe for the first time since I've been back I didn't feel like the loser awkward RM! I felt like myself again. It feels good.
Saturday: Not much happened all day long. But this...Sister Scott, from Bangor (my 1st area) added me on Facebook. It was weird to me because I only met her once & she was less-active. But then she wrote this on my wall. "hi sister fisher!! thank you for coming out to teach me last yr, i am now active in the church again in bangor 1st ward, hope all is well for you x" WOW! Talk about a tender mercy! Let this be a lesson to all missionaries (aka every member of the church) no effort is wasted! We tried sooo many times to get into her house & I only managed to once before I got transferred. And now look what has happened. Apparently from that one time we were able to get in more missionaries we able to get in & now she is active! Amazing. No effort is wasted people!
Monday: Welp the day was pretty long & boring & then my good friend Derek Smith text me and said he was bored too. So at like 9:45 at night we popped by Redbox & got Pirates of the Carribean: On Stranger Tides. It was definitely not my favorite of the Pirates movies but it was still okay. After the movie we looked at some of his mission photos on his phone and talked and laughed. Finally at 12:45 Matthew text me & told me it was time to kick Derek out. It was good times.
Tuesday: Work at the pool. I dove head first into another book. The Host by Stephanie Myers (yep Twilight lady) I've read it before but I'm a speed reader so I like to read books more then once so I can pick up on what I missed when I read it the last time. Anyway...its an awesome book and you should read it if you haven't.
After work I hung out with my old friend Dan Brown. We went to Yogurtland and then walked around the beach. I put my toes in the Pacific Ocean for the first time in 19 months (maybe longer) and we talked about my mission & caught up. It was fun.
Wednesday (today): Rachel & I helped Mom make caramel corn for church for Father's Day. We made it from scratch and it is super yummy if I do so myself (which I can totally say because Rachel made most of it)
Then we spent about two hours at the dealership for the newest member of the family. Rachel bought a car this week (she doesn't have a name yet) and we had to go her smog checked so we waited for that. Then we got in to go home & the car wouldn't start. So we waited another hour while they got a new battery. At least all of it was free!
Then tonight I went on a date with Aaron. We went to Downtown Disney & ate at the Rainforest Cafe & then watched the fireworks from the park! It was fun! Not as awkward as I thought it was gonna be seeing as this was only my second official date since I've been back!
I know that this has turned into a novel practically but its been a fun week & I don't want to forget!
<3 Becca
Monday: Welp the day was pretty long & boring & then my good friend Derek Smith text me and said he was bored too. So at like 9:45 at night we popped by Redbox & got Pirates of the Carribean: On Stranger Tides. It was definitely not my favorite of the Pirates movies but it was still okay. After the movie we looked at some of his mission photos on his phone and talked and laughed. Finally at 12:45 Matthew text me & told me it was time to kick Derek out. It was good times.
Tuesday: Work at the pool. I dove head first into another book. The Host by Stephanie Myers (yep Twilight lady) I've read it before but I'm a speed reader so I like to read books more then once so I can pick up on what I missed when I read it the last time. Anyway...its an awesome book and you should read it if you haven't.
After work I hung out with my old friend Dan Brown. We went to Yogurtland and then walked around the beach. I put my toes in the Pacific Ocean for the first time in 19 months (maybe longer) and we talked about my mission & caught up. It was fun.
Wednesday (today): Rachel & I helped Mom make caramel corn for church for Father's Day. We made it from scratch and it is super yummy if I do so myself (which I can totally say because Rachel made most of it)
Then we spent about two hours at the dealership for the newest member of the family. Rachel bought a car this week (she doesn't have a name yet) and we had to go her smog checked so we waited for that. Then we got in to go home & the car wouldn't start. So we waited another hour while they got a new battery. At least all of it was free!
Then tonight I went on a date with Aaron. We went to Downtown Disney & ate at the Rainforest Cafe & then watched the fireworks from the park! It was fun! Not as awkward as I thought it was gonna be seeing as this was only my second official date since I've been back!
I know that this has turned into a novel practically but its been a fun week & I don't want to forget!
<3 Becca
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Girly Night
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| Katie, Me & Rachel |
These are my younger sisters. I love them a lot. Since preping for my mission, being on my mission & finally coming home from my mission I have grown so much closer to them & for that I will be forever grateful.
Tonight we kinda had an improv girl night!
It started off by reading this book.
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| The Book of Mormon |
Katie is reading it for personal progress so we decided to read it together. It is amazing to sit down & read the scriptures with them. The Spirit is so strong when we do.
Then we all went to the living room and Mom joined us & we started watching the two newest dating game shows. The Choice & Take Me Out. I must say I have been watching the trailers for these shows for sometime now & I've not had the slightest desire to watch them. BUT it turns out that both of them were super funny & even Mom was getting into them!
It was such a fun night! I love having sisters to just hang out with!
<3 Becca
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Happily Ever After
Today felt oddly busy & then filled with nothing at the same time.
I made dinner for my family. It was called Cowboy Dinner. (original I know). It was delish! Would've been better in a dutch oven but this is California and its starting to be summer & there was no way I was gonna start a fire and die of heat stroke.
Other then that there wasn't much going on today. I got my temple recommend interview with Bishop tonight and all that jazz.
Then I watched The Proposal on my computer in my room. This is something that should never really happen. Watching chick flicks by myself I mean. I get all sappy & lovey & then I look around & remember I'm by myself. Its a little depressing. But that's ok because I had a revelation on my mission. Put in simple terms it is that we will all get our very own happily ever after. And its going to be even better then the movies.
Did I ever tell you that this is why I want to be a wedding planner. Yes I am obsessed with weddings BUT I am even more obsessed with love. My favorite part about the gospel is the knowledge that every little girl who ever dreams about finding their own prince will one day eventually find him & then that love can last forever. SO I want to be a wedding planner because I want everyone to be able to start off their journey to Happily Ever After in whatever way they choose. I hate when a girl or guy for that matter has to settle for their second choice on what should be the most magical day of their lives because of money. Princesses would never have to do that and like this book teaches us "I am a princess. All girls are. Even if they live in tiny old attics. Even if they dress in rags, even if they aren't pretty, or smart, or young. They're still princesses. All of us."
So yeah. that is why I am going to be a wedding planner. Because I am going to give every princess her dream day & not put her in debt for it. How am I going to do that you ask? No clue. But I will.
I made dinner for my family. It was called Cowboy Dinner. (original I know). It was delish! Would've been better in a dutch oven but this is California and its starting to be summer & there was no way I was gonna start a fire and die of heat stroke.
Other then that there wasn't much going on today. I got my temple recommend interview with Bishop tonight and all that jazz.
Then I watched The Proposal on my computer in my room. This is something that should never really happen. Watching chick flicks by myself I mean. I get all sappy & lovey & then I look around & remember I'm by myself. Its a little depressing. But that's ok because I had a revelation on my mission. Put in simple terms it is that we will all get our very own happily ever after. And its going to be even better then the movies.
Did I ever tell you that this is why I want to be a wedding planner. Yes I am obsessed with weddings BUT I am even more obsessed with love. My favorite part about the gospel is the knowledge that every little girl who ever dreams about finding their own prince will one day eventually find him & then that love can last forever. SO I want to be a wedding planner because I want everyone to be able to start off their journey to Happily Ever After in whatever way they choose. I hate when a girl or guy for that matter has to settle for their second choice on what should be the most magical day of their lives because of money. Princesses would never have to do that and like this book teaches us "I am a princess. All girls are. Even if they live in tiny old attics. Even if they dress in rags, even if they aren't pretty, or smart, or young. They're still princesses. All of us."
So yeah. that is why I am going to be a wedding planner. Because I am going to give every princess her dream day & not put her in debt for it. How am I going to do that you ask? No clue. But I will.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Parker Planner
well you can't see it very well but my planners came!!! I decided to embrace the mission nerd inside me and order the Parker Planner from BYU-Idaho Bookstore. Its exactly like a mission planner without the missionary stuff! LOVE IT!
Can't wait to start planning!!!!
<3 Becca Fisher
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Ok so first & foremost, that last post from "yesterday" well it was supposed to be from the 1st! I forgot that it was after midnight when I wrote it.
2nd you are probably gonna hear this a lot from me but I LOVE my family! It was a family day today after church. We celebrated my birthday with some delish ribs & then we went to that park to try out Dad's $1 boomerang! It was pretty cool. It didn't work as well as the movies but we're still practicing.
Then there were presents & then movies. I don't know it was nothing special but I guess it was just nice to be with my family & spend the day with them.
2nd you are probably gonna hear this a lot from me but I LOVE my family! It was a family day today after church. We celebrated my birthday with some delish ribs & then we went to that park to try out Dad's $1 boomerang! It was pretty cool. It didn't work as well as the movies but we're still practicing.
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| Rachel & I at the park! |
There are somethings in life that I take for granted sometimes. My family is one of the usually; and that I get to spend so much time with them since most of us are home for the summer. The only thing that could make it better was if Emily was here with us.
<3 Becca Fisher
Saturday, June 2, 2012
24 & Counting
Well world, today I turned 24. It was such a good day. For most of the day I just chilled & caught up on some TV shows that I've missed. It was nice to relax.
RM Awkward Moment! Well tonight we (Matthew, Rachel & I) had our "All Staff In-Service" meeting for the pool. Usually what happens there is we eat & then we sit in a boring meeting where they tell us things that we all already know because we've all worked there for so dang long. Not this year. This year they brought in some people to do some "team building" things with us. First they took us outside & we played one name game & that was fine. Then we played this game where we kinda walked around & then they shouted out a number & you had to get that many people in a group. Oh my gosh! The thing is that once you have the number you don't want anyone else to get in so we were a huddled up like football players only closer together. The first few times I was crammed up next to some guys & I was freaking out a little inside. Seriously, closest I've been to a boy in FOREVER! I about died.
Then Lori & I went to the dance! It was sooo much fun! I LOVE dancing! Its seriously therapy. I can just close my eyes & imagine I'm on the stage & sing my guts out to whoever I want to. Its amazing. It also makes me feel really confident though I'm not quite sure why. I'll take it though!
Soo all in all its been a really good Birthday! Love my Life!
<3 Becca Fisher
RM Awkward Moment! Well tonight we (Matthew, Rachel & I) had our "All Staff In-Service" meeting for the pool. Usually what happens there is we eat & then we sit in a boring meeting where they tell us things that we all already know because we've all worked there for so dang long. Not this year. This year they brought in some people to do some "team building" things with us. First they took us outside & we played one name game & that was fine. Then we played this game where we kinda walked around & then they shouted out a number & you had to get that many people in a group. Oh my gosh! The thing is that once you have the number you don't want anyone else to get in so we were a huddled up like football players only closer together. The first few times I was crammed up next to some guys & I was freaking out a little inside. Seriously, closest I've been to a boy in FOREVER! I about died.
Then Lori & I went to the dance! It was sooo much fun! I LOVE dancing! Its seriously therapy. I can just close my eyes & imagine I'm on the stage & sing my guts out to whoever I want to. Its amazing. It also makes me feel really confident though I'm not quite sure why. I'll take it though!
Soo all in all its been a really good Birthday! Love my Life!
<3 Becca Fisher
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Reminders
I got up early this morning & went to seminary! Sister Smith asked me to tell that students about my mission. How I decided to go & what I gained from it. It was a HUGE blessing to be able to once again reflect & bare my testimony.
I went to work today. This wasn't the first time I went to work since I've been back but it is the first time that anything of consequence happened while I was there; or at least while I was traveling home.
The first thing that happened was, we were all sitting there minding our own business while the water aerobics class was going on and one of the guards runs back & telling us that a cop pulled his gun outside. What?! So of course we all went to see. Weeelll we really didn't see all that much. Just the cop arresting some punk. But I walked back to my seat laughing because it just reminded me of how scary the cops are here and how un-scary the cops are in the UK. hehe
Then I started walking home. And all throughout the park there are young kids & not so young kids all playing football aka soccer. My mind was blown for a little while & in my head I was like "Wait...isn't this America? Shouldn't they all be playing baseball?" Yes they should but I decided to just relish in the fact that it looked like my home. Well the one on the other side of the world at least.
So I kept walking because I'm no good at football and I was really hungry. So I'm walking down the street minding my own business & BAM I see some hydrangeas. Now that's kinda silly don't you think? To notices some silly flowers. Well not when like everyone that lives in Scotland & Ireland has them & you've spent countless hours staring at them & trying to count how many different hues of purple/blue/pink they can be while tracting.
Why is any of this important? They are all just silly little things. But they remind me that Heavenly Father is aware of me. He is watching me & taking care of me. He loves me & knows my concerns & fears. All these little things about my mission remind me of the big things; like how He took care of everything when it felt like nothing was within my power to control. It reminds me that He is still in control & is still taking care of everything even though nothing is in my control. I'm so glad that He's taking care of my life. Whenever I try to take care of it it just turns into a big mess!
I went to work today. This wasn't the first time I went to work since I've been back but it is the first time that anything of consequence happened while I was there; or at least while I was traveling home.
The first thing that happened was, we were all sitting there minding our own business while the water aerobics class was going on and one of the guards runs back & telling us that a cop pulled his gun outside. What?! So of course we all went to see. Weeelll we really didn't see all that much. Just the cop arresting some punk. But I walked back to my seat laughing because it just reminded me of how scary the cops are here and how un-scary the cops are in the UK. hehe
Then I started walking home. And all throughout the park there are young kids & not so young kids all playing football aka soccer. My mind was blown for a little while & in my head I was like "Wait...isn't this America? Shouldn't they all be playing baseball?" Yes they should but I decided to just relish in the fact that it looked like my home. Well the one on the other side of the world at least.
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| Playing football in the rain with the Elders |
So I kept walking because I'm no good at football and I was really hungry. So I'm walking down the street minding my own business & BAM I see some hydrangeas. Now that's kinda silly don't you think? To notices some silly flowers. Well not when like everyone that lives in Scotland & Ireland has them & you've spent countless hours staring at them & trying to count how many different hues of purple/blue/pink they can be while tracting.
Why is any of this important? They are all just silly little things. But they remind me that Heavenly Father is aware of me. He is watching me & taking care of me. He loves me & knows my concerns & fears. All these little things about my mission remind me of the big things; like how He took care of everything when it felt like nothing was within my power to control. It reminds me that He is still in control & is still taking care of everything even though nothing is in my control. I'm so glad that He's taking care of my life. Whenever I try to take care of it it just turns into a big mess!
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
No Pain
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| A rainy day in Scotland |
I'm sitting here trying to think what to write. Nothing. Don't you hate that? Nothing of consequence happened today. Oh besides the fact that my slave driver (aka my younger sister Rachel) made me get up at 8 & do P90X Cardio for the first time since I've been home. UGH. You would think that all that walking around in the rain on my mission might help with this whole working out thing, you know help me to not feel like I'm dying...nope.
I guess its like they say. No pain....No gain. I like my old philosophy: No pain...no pain!
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Andventure
I should be sleeping; but I've been trapped in the world of Hunger Games all day & the need to see how the series ends was greater then the need to sleep. I am addicted to them. It feels oddly like a relief to be so captivated by something so simple as books again. I'm sure lots of people think like this but I see everything in my head like my own personal movie. Because of this its extremely easy for me to get lost in my own little world...or a world that someone else makes up for me. I paint myself into the stories so tightly that it feels like real life. I love it.
There is on one problem with that. I have to come back out & into reality again.
In the Disney movie Beauty & the Beast; right after Gaston tries to get Belle to marry him she runs off into this field singing. I'm sure like a billion girls on the planet say this but the lyrics are what I feel when I get myself lost in the world of fantasy & have to come back out again.
She sings: "I want adventure in the great wide somewhere. I want it more then I can bare! And for once it might be grand, to have someone, understand. I want so much more then they've got planned."
That is me. Don't get me wrong I LOVE my life. I have a great one. I've been blessed more then I deserve! But sometimes (okay lots of the time) I sit back & think, life would be so fun if I was Katniss Everdeen, or Wanda (Stephanie Myers The Host) or even Hermione Granger. To live in a world that is filled with dangers & magic & things we've never dreamed of. Where good always wins.
Sometimes I hope that when I get to the Celestial Kingdom & gain the skill to build "worlds without number" that I'll be allowed to make worlds with wizards & universes with Jedi. And then I hope I get to go have adventures on them. I'm sure by the time I get to the CK though I'll be smarter then that & want different things.
I don't really know what the point of all this is tonight. Maybe I just want people to see that I am bigger then they think I am. Though I'm probably the only one who thought I was small in the first place.
They say that life's what you make it. I guess its time for an adventure.
There is on one problem with that. I have to come back out & into reality again.
In the Disney movie Beauty & the Beast; right after Gaston tries to get Belle to marry him she runs off into this field singing. I'm sure like a billion girls on the planet say this but the lyrics are what I feel when I get myself lost in the world of fantasy & have to come back out again.
She sings: "I want adventure in the great wide somewhere. I want it more then I can bare! And for once it might be grand, to have someone, understand. I want so much more then they've got planned."
That is me. Don't get me wrong I LOVE my life. I have a great one. I've been blessed more then I deserve! But sometimes (okay lots of the time) I sit back & think, life would be so fun if I was Katniss Everdeen, or Wanda (Stephanie Myers The Host) or even Hermione Granger. To live in a world that is filled with dangers & magic & things we've never dreamed of. Where good always wins.
Sometimes I hope that when I get to the Celestial Kingdom & gain the skill to build "worlds without number" that I'll be allowed to make worlds with wizards & universes with Jedi. And then I hope I get to go have adventures on them. I'm sure by the time I get to the CK though I'll be smarter then that & want different things.
I don't really know what the point of all this is tonight. Maybe I just want people to see that I am bigger then they think I am. Though I'm probably the only one who thought I was small in the first place.
They say that life's what you make it. I guess its time for an adventure.
Monday, May 28, 2012
Don't Give Up
Today in Sacrament my father spoke about prayer and gaining a relationship with our Savior Jesus Christ. He started off talking about men from the New Testament, the rich young ruler & Peter, & spoke about how Peter had let the commandments help him know the Savior while the rich young ruler just obeyed the commandments.
And then he starts talking about Peter Anderson & I am transported. I am no longer in a chapel in California. I am walking home from the shopping center for lunch; my companion, Sister Oswald, is following close behind on the narrow footpath. We are laughing like we always do. A man turns the corner; startling me a little.
I am in our tiny room. Laying on my bed trying to get rid of the headache that's been driving me crazy all week. Our joint teach Sister Green dropped us to go see Peter & I am frustrated. We've only gotten to see Peter once. Canceling on him could prove disastrous. So Sister Oswald makes the call as I listen carefully.
And finally I land in a tiny apartment, sitting on a couch that threatens to eat if I sit back any further on it. I am listening is awe as Peter tells us his story. He read the Book of Mormon until 2 in the morning last night. He came to the conclusion that this book couldn't have been written by a 24 year old, uneducated, guy in upstate New York. So he did what he hadn't done in years. He got down on his knees & prayed. He asked Heavenly Father to forgive him us his sins & to let him know if the Book of Mormon was true.
Peter Anderson was baptized 3 weeks later. I was not there to see it. I was transferred; but Peter Anderson was our miracle. Every missionary's dream. But for me he was more then that. Peter taught me about my Heavenly Father's love for His children. There is a quote; I don't know who said it "Heavenly Father will come as close as we are willing to let Him come." Peter Anderson spent YEARS running from our Heavenly Father. But not once, for one half of a second did Heavenly Father EVER give up on him.
And if we let Him, our LOVING Heavenly Father will be with us. Always.
<3 Becca Fisher
And then he starts talking about Peter Anderson & I am transported. I am no longer in a chapel in California. I am walking home from the shopping center for lunch; my companion, Sister Oswald, is following close behind on the narrow footpath. We are laughing like we always do. A man turns the corner; startling me a little.
"Can we give you a card sir?" Is the question that pops out of my mouth.
"Sure" comes the reply "What is it?"
"We are sharing how there is a prophet on earth today. Would that be important to you?" My approach is not very special. But the man, Peter Anderson accepts an appointment.
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| Sister Oswald & I |
I am in our tiny room. Laying on my bed trying to get rid of the headache that's been driving me crazy all week. Our joint teach Sister Green dropped us to go see Peter & I am frustrated. We've only gotten to see Peter once. Canceling on him could prove disastrous. So Sister Oswald makes the call as I listen carefully.
"You've read all of 1st &2nd Nephi?!" Sister Oswald questions in awe. I sit bolt upright & lean closer.
"Wow that's amazing" is Sister Oswald's response. "Have you prayed about it?" I hold my breath during the pause. "Well I invite you to pray about what you have read Peter. I promise that the Lord will answer your prayers." And the conversation is ended.
And finally I land in a tiny apartment, sitting on a couch that threatens to eat if I sit back any further on it. I am listening is awe as Peter tells us his story. He read the Book of Mormon until 2 in the morning last night. He came to the conclusion that this book couldn't have been written by a 24 year old, uneducated, guy in upstate New York. So he did what he hadn't done in years. He got down on his knees & prayed. He asked Heavenly Father to forgive him us his sins & to let him know if the Book of Mormon was true.
Peter Anderson was baptized 3 weeks later. I was not there to see it. I was transferred; but Peter Anderson was our miracle. Every missionary's dream. But for me he was more then that. Peter taught me about my Heavenly Father's love for His children. There is a quote; I don't know who said it "Heavenly Father will come as close as we are willing to let Him come." Peter Anderson spent YEARS running from our Heavenly Father. But not once, for one half of a second did Heavenly Father EVER give up on him.
And if we let Him, our LOVING Heavenly Father will be with us. Always.
<3 Becca Fisher
Friday, May 25, 2012
First Date!
So last night I had my first date since returning from my mission! The church is putting on a California wide YSA Conference this summer in August and as part of the conference they are having a bunch of summer activities for us; including three temple nights!
So Derek Smith took me to dinner & then the temple for the YSA night! It was SUPER fun to spend time with my friend & to talk about our missions & such! Of course it felt a little awkward. The first time alone with a boy in a year & a half...kinda scary! But things went well...mostly because we are both RM's and we pretty much talked about our missions the whole time! If it had been anyone else I might've died of fright & awkwardness!
We went to Wahoo's Fish Tacos! YUM! Well before that we got stuck in traffic on the 405 & then missed our exit because we were stuck in the car pool lane & then were slightly lost because the GPS took us to a different Wahoo's. Good times! :)
And then of course the temple was amazing! It was Derek's first time at LA temple & the biggest secession I've ever been too! It was really neat! And the Spirit was very strong. I love it there in the temple. So many things to learn & experience & feel! Mostly I just love that Heavenly Father loves us enough to give us temples. On my mission I met lots of Born-Again Christians. Don't get me wrong I love them & so does Heavenly Father, but I just don't really get their logic. Anyway near the end of my mission I met a lovely Born-Again couple & I think they are from the States but I could be too sure. But we got talking to them & I just kept getting the feeling that all they thought of God was that He was God & in charge. While that is true He is sooo much more then God! He is our Father!And He loves us with a PERFECT love! I kept trying to bare testimony that we can change & that we can become better through the Atonement of Jesus Christ but they didn't understand how God could want us to become like Him! SO I am grateful for the knowledge that the Heavenly Father WANTS me to become like Him and for giving us temples which are one of the things (probably the greatest thing) that helps us to become like Him.
So...do I still sound like a missionary? ;)
<3 Sister Becca Fisher
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
According to Plan
Oooook! So I've not been posting because, well I don't really have an excuse except for I've been SUPER distracted by trying to catch up on some TV shows! haha!
Also things haven't really gone according to plan thus far coming home. (When do they ever go according to plan?) BUT tonight I got a HUGE blessing from my Father in Heaven. I can't tell you all the details because I don't know whose eyes see this but lets just say ahhh!!! SOOO excited right now!
That is something I LOVE so much about Heavenly Father. If we just TRUST Him, He will take care of everything for us! And I know that even if things don't turn out the way I want them to then He has something better in mind. Because He loves me & He knows whats best for me. So I will continue to trust.
<3 Becca Fisher
Also things haven't really gone according to plan thus far coming home. (When do they ever go according to plan?) BUT tonight I got a HUGE blessing from my Father in Heaven. I can't tell you all the details because I don't know whose eyes see this but lets just say ahhh!!! SOOO excited right now!
That is something I LOVE so much about Heavenly Father. If we just TRUST Him, He will take care of everything for us! And I know that even if things don't turn out the way I want them to then He has something better in mind. Because He loves me & He knows whats best for me. So I will continue to trust.
<3 Becca Fisher
Saturday, May 19, 2012
For Forever!
Good day today blogger world! It started out that I went to a CPR/First Aid class to be certified so I can work at the pool this summer! Whoot whoot!
Then I wrote my talk for tomorrow. Its all about Gratitude & you'll have to wait along with everyone else to see what I have to say about that but in the mean time I like this video =]
This evening I went to the Lakewood 3rd Ward Young Women Camp Fundraiser. Country Western was the theme! They fed us dinner & we had quarter games & line dancing & pictures & all kinds of fun stuff! It was a BRILLIANT party! The YW did such a good job. The decorations were perfect & everyone had fun! I loved seeing the Dads all get up & play the quarter games that were meant for the kids.
That is one of the reasons why I love this church. We can all be ourselves; well most of the time. No one is perfect. But in this ward we can usually be ourselves. They are like my big extended family just as those who I met on my mission are...and I cannot wait for everyone to meet when we get to the Celestial Kingdom its going to be one party!
So that is what I am most grateful for tonight. Good food, good friends, amazing family & the chance to have them all for forever!
<3 Becca Fisher
Then I wrote my talk for tomorrow. Its all about Gratitude & you'll have to wait along with everyone else to see what I have to say about that but in the mean time I like this video =]
This evening I went to the Lakewood 3rd Ward Young Women Camp Fundraiser. Country Western was the theme! They fed us dinner & we had quarter games & line dancing & pictures & all kinds of fun stuff! It was a BRILLIANT party! The YW did such a good job. The decorations were perfect & everyone had fun! I loved seeing the Dads all get up & play the quarter games that were meant for the kids.
That is one of the reasons why I love this church. We can all be ourselves; well most of the time. No one is perfect. But in this ward we can usually be ourselves. They are like my big extended family just as those who I met on my mission are...and I cannot wait for everyone to meet when we get to the Celestial Kingdom its going to be one party!
So that is what I am most grateful for tonight. Good food, good friends, amazing family & the chance to have them all for forever!
<3 Becca Fisher
Friday, May 18, 2012
Blah Blah Blah
Again I am sorry I didn't post yesterday buuuttt this time I have a good excuse! My good friend Elder Derek Smith got home from his mission yesterday, so I used my blogging time to talk to him on the phone =P He left about 6 months before I did & served faithfully in the Missouri, St. Louis Mission! He's the BEST! We had a lovely conversation about our missions & how awkward it is to be home. I'm super glad he's home because now I have someone to be awkward with! It'll be much more fun then doing it all by myself.
I'm sitting here trying to decide what I did the past two days that was exciting.
OH Rachel took me shopping on Thursday. So I was pretty excited at first & then about 30 minutes into our shopping extravaganza I realized that this was NOT as fun as I remember it being. And so I'm wandering around the store trying to figure out why I feel so dang awkward & the only cute things I can find are skirts or dresses when it hits me. The fashion is WAY different here!! All the things that I had been planning on wearing when I got home don't exist here! And that makes me super grateful for online shopping!
But anyway I got this awesome pair of black heels because...well if you think really hard & cock your head to one side I need new black dress shoes! :)
Today I tried to write my homecoming talk. Its on gratitude & I'm pretty sure that I read about a bajillion talks on gratitude today. Am I any closer to knowing what to say then I was this morning? Nope. I'm sure I'll figure it out.
But for now its bed time! loves!
<3 Becca Fisher
I'm sitting here trying to decide what I did the past two days that was exciting.
OH Rachel took me shopping on Thursday. So I was pretty excited at first & then about 30 minutes into our shopping extravaganza I realized that this was NOT as fun as I remember it being. And so I'm wandering around the store trying to figure out why I feel so dang awkward & the only cute things I can find are skirts or dresses when it hits me. The fashion is WAY different here!! All the things that I had been planning on wearing when I got home don't exist here! And that makes me super grateful for online shopping!
But anyway I got this awesome pair of black heels because...well if you think really hard & cock your head to one side I need new black dress shoes! :)
Today I tried to write my homecoming talk. Its on gratitude & I'm pretty sure that I read about a bajillion talks on gratitude today. Am I any closer to knowing what to say then I was this morning? Nope. I'm sure I'll figure it out.
But for now its bed time! loves!
<3 Becca Fisher
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Decided
It has been a good productive day today! I woke up early and went to the dentist. Oh how I HATE that place. I want to run every time my mother says I have to go. But I did it and I didn't die...this time.
After the dentist I rushed off to have a job interview with Macy's. Can I just say right now that missions help with EVERYTHING! Seriously every question could be answered by something that I did on my mission. And I could totally tell that the interviewer was pleased with the answers that I gave! I didn't get the job because they'd already filled the position but the put me on "the bench" and are going to call me if they need me for something else! Overall I'm a little bummed that I didn't get it but I know that I did everything that I can and the Lord will take care of me.
Random...I mentioned to the lady that I had only been back like two weeks & in my head I was thinking "wow its only been that long?" It feels like AGES since I got back. Its a little strange; when you're on the mission everything else in the past feels like it wasn't real, like it was only a dream. But now that I'm home it feels like the mission was a dream. But don't worry I've got the pictures to prove that it was real!
Lets see other then that I just went to Young Women to help out Mom do some dances with the girls for their fundraiser it was lots of fun & made me miss being young & in the mutual program. It was so much fun!
Rachel got home today & I'm excited because that means I've got more to do! Also SUPER excited for my very good friend Elder Derek Smith to get home from his mission tomorrow!! Its going to be an AWESOME summer...I just decided!
<3 Becca Fisher
After the dentist I rushed off to have a job interview with Macy's. Can I just say right now that missions help with EVERYTHING! Seriously every question could be answered by something that I did on my mission. And I could totally tell that the interviewer was pleased with the answers that I gave! I didn't get the job because they'd already filled the position but the put me on "the bench" and are going to call me if they need me for something else! Overall I'm a little bummed that I didn't get it but I know that I did everything that I can and the Lord will take care of me.
Random...I mentioned to the lady that I had only been back like two weeks & in my head I was thinking "wow its only been that long?" It feels like AGES since I got back. Its a little strange; when you're on the mission everything else in the past feels like it wasn't real, like it was only a dream. But now that I'm home it feels like the mission was a dream. But don't worry I've got the pictures to prove that it was real!
Lets see other then that I just went to Young Women to help out Mom do some dances with the girls for their fundraiser it was lots of fun & made me miss being young & in the mutual program. It was so much fun!
Rachel got home today & I'm excited because that means I've got more to do! Also SUPER excited for my very good friend Elder Derek Smith to get home from his mission tomorrow!! Its going to be an AWESOME summer...I just decided!
<3 Becca Fisher
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Closet Nerd
So I'm not as good at this as I wanted to be but after the feelings I've had this last weekend I decided to cheer myself up the old fashioned way. First I said lots of prayers...yep that worked pretty well. BUT there's not a lot of things going on around this join as of right now sooo I decided to gorge myself on movies to keep my mind occupied. So I went to redbox first & then across the street to my neighbors who basically have their own movie store in their cupboard they have so many movies. And I've now completed Thor, Breaking Dawn Part 1, and Harry Potters 7.1&2!!! *Squeal*
Internet people...I hope you all appreciate what I am about to tell you right now because up until this point I've been able to keep this a secret from the world; but I am a nerd. Like a HUGE nerd. Not only am I the type of girl that dreams about being IN Harry Potter or Twilight...but I actually write it all down! I also get all giddy every time I read or watch pretty much ANYTHING to do with fantasy!
So there you are world I am coming out. I am a NERD! And proud of it! (I mean come on Harry Potter came out when I was in 6th grade...I grew up with him! I'm totally allowed to love it!)
And world I've found a NEW obsession...The Hunger Games. And I know that they aren't new to you...but they are new to me! Now there is only one problem...how do I write myself into a book where only 24 characters can get in on the real action & all those spots are already filled? This is going to take some thinking...
<3 Becca Fisher
Internet people...I hope you all appreciate what I am about to tell you right now because up until this point I've been able to keep this a secret from the world; but I am a nerd. Like a HUGE nerd. Not only am I the type of girl that dreams about being IN Harry Potter or Twilight...but I actually write it all down! I also get all giddy every time I read or watch pretty much ANYTHING to do with fantasy!
So there you are world I am coming out. I am a NERD! And proud of it! (I mean come on Harry Potter came out when I was in 6th grade...I grew up with him! I'm totally allowed to love it!)
And world I've found a NEW obsession...The Hunger Games. And I know that they aren't new to you...but they are new to me! Now there is only one problem...how do I write myself into a book where only 24 characters can get in on the real action & all those spots are already filled? This is going to take some thinking...
<3 Becca Fisher
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Where Faith Comes In
I'm sorry that I've not posted everyday this weekend. I've been mucho tired. So here's a recap:
Friday: The day was kinda boring. But I did receive a miracle! I've been spending just about ALL my time filling out online applications to anywhere that is hiring and I got an email from Macy's to schedule an interview!! Woo hoo! So I am going in on the 16th of May so everyone pray for me that I can get this job because I REALLY need the money!
Then that night I went dancing with Lori! Of course its the first time since I've come home & I prepared myself (mentally) aaaallll day so that I wouldn't be awkward & I must say that I am happy that I wasn't! The only awkward thing was the two boys that asked me to dance! I was glad that they were the awkward ones & not me! But it was nice of them to ask me to dance. Anyway the dance was SO much FUN! It felt just like old times except that I barely knew anyone, but Lori & I don't really care about that anyway! Also I got to see one of my MTC companions Sister Lomiga! It was AWESOME to see her again!
Saturday: Basically cleaned all day long. Also I finally started The Hunger Games... yep I'm already addicted & sure to have the book done by Wednesday when Rachel (my sister) gets home just in time to go see the movie!
Today: Sunday. Mother's Day. Depressed. Don't know why. We went to church as always. I got to play with wee Penny. She is maybe one yrs old. And she is beautiful! In Relief Society we had a really good lesson about prayer...that's what I miss the most about a mission I think. There I was formally talking to my Heavenly Father like ALL the time. About everything. And I know that I can here as well...I guess I just don't know what to talk about anymore. Also there was an investigator there. Her name is Tamera & she is getting baptized on the 26th of May. She is amazing. She told her story of how she just felt & knew that this was the place that she was supposed to be but she didn't know how she knew. The teacher (who also happened to be my former YW leader & YSA leader & one of my best friends) called on me to answer. I was so grateful. I needed that. So I explained to her about the Holy Ghost & how it feels & testified that it was from a loving Heavenly Father. The Spirit was strong there. I cried after I taught. What wouldn't I give to be back in my sweet sweet Scotland & Ireland. Tonight there is nothing I wouldn't give. I miss it.
And then as if it is scripted my mother comes into my room tonight & reveals to me the source of my sorrow. My brother Matthew has a girlfriend & yesterday on skype they were reading scriptures together. My mother came in to prep me just in case this means wedding bells. She told me all the things a mother should. You're an amazing woman, you've had so many great experiences, you've have so many blessings, just trust in the Lord's timing. She tells me about all the brave women who are not married & how big of spiritual giants they are. She tells me about all the woman who had to wait until their 40's to get married but look at the amazing men they got! One got an apostle. I understand all of that. Don't get me wrong I love my mother. SO much & I know that she truly believes that I will get married. She is just doing her job. I also understand that there is NOTHING wrong with the women in this church who aren't able to get married or are asked to have patience in the Lord. And I know that they are soo blessed because of their faith. But I do not want to be one of them.
Sometimes I feel as though my dream of having my own family is right at the tips of my fingers. But more often then not I feel as if it is a world away. And most of the time I just try to laugh it off & say "well who wants to get married young anyway? You can't do everything you want; like live in New York or backpack around Europe if you get married soon." But I would trade all of that any day.
I'm sorry that this entry has turned into somewhat of a pity party. I do want to put my trust in the Lord. I know that one day I will get to enter into this house & be sealed with the love of my life...it's just a mannter of patience.
I know that He will bless me with the desires of my heart. I have been promised that many times. I guess that's where faith comes in.
<3 Becca Fisher
Friday: The day was kinda boring. But I did receive a miracle! I've been spending just about ALL my time filling out online applications to anywhere that is hiring and I got an email from Macy's to schedule an interview!! Woo hoo! So I am going in on the 16th of May so everyone pray for me that I can get this job because I REALLY need the money!
Then that night I went dancing with Lori! Of course its the first time since I've come home & I prepared myself (mentally) aaaallll day so that I wouldn't be awkward & I must say that I am happy that I wasn't! The only awkward thing was the two boys that asked me to dance! I was glad that they were the awkward ones & not me! But it was nice of them to ask me to dance. Anyway the dance was SO much FUN! It felt just like old times except that I barely knew anyone, but Lori & I don't really care about that anyway! Also I got to see one of my MTC companions Sister Lomiga! It was AWESOME to see her again!
Saturday: Basically cleaned all day long. Also I finally started The Hunger Games... yep I'm already addicted & sure to have the book done by Wednesday when Rachel (my sister) gets home just in time to go see the movie!
Today: Sunday. Mother's Day. Depressed. Don't know why. We went to church as always. I got to play with wee Penny. She is maybe one yrs old. And she is beautiful! In Relief Society we had a really good lesson about prayer...that's what I miss the most about a mission I think. There I was formally talking to my Heavenly Father like ALL the time. About everything. And I know that I can here as well...I guess I just don't know what to talk about anymore. Also there was an investigator there. Her name is Tamera & she is getting baptized on the 26th of May. She is amazing. She told her story of how she just felt & knew that this was the place that she was supposed to be but she didn't know how she knew. The teacher (who also happened to be my former YW leader & YSA leader & one of my best friends) called on me to answer. I was so grateful. I needed that. So I explained to her about the Holy Ghost & how it feels & testified that it was from a loving Heavenly Father. The Spirit was strong there. I cried after I taught. What wouldn't I give to be back in my sweet sweet Scotland & Ireland. Tonight there is nothing I wouldn't give. I miss it.
And then as if it is scripted my mother comes into my room tonight & reveals to me the source of my sorrow. My brother Matthew has a girlfriend & yesterday on skype they were reading scriptures together. My mother came in to prep me just in case this means wedding bells. She told me all the things a mother should. You're an amazing woman, you've had so many great experiences, you've have so many blessings, just trust in the Lord's timing. She tells me about all the brave women who are not married & how big of spiritual giants they are. She tells me about all the woman who had to wait until their 40's to get married but look at the amazing men they got! One got an apostle. I understand all of that. Don't get me wrong I love my mother. SO much & I know that she truly believes that I will get married. She is just doing her job. I also understand that there is NOTHING wrong with the women in this church who aren't able to get married or are asked to have patience in the Lord. And I know that they are soo blessed because of their faith. But I do not want to be one of them.
Sometimes I feel as though my dream of having my own family is right at the tips of my fingers. But more often then not I feel as if it is a world away. And most of the time I just try to laugh it off & say "well who wants to get married young anyway? You can't do everything you want; like live in New York or backpack around Europe if you get married soon." But I would trade all of that any day.
I'm sorry that this entry has turned into somewhat of a pity party. I do want to put my trust in the Lord. I know that one day I will get to enter into this house & be sealed with the love of my life...it's just a mannter of patience.
I know that He will bless me with the desires of my heart. I have been promised that many times. I guess that's where faith comes in.
<3 Becca Fisher
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Loser Like Me
Oh what a day. Do you know how exhausting it is to type you address, phone number & all your previous employers like a billion times? Well...not a billion times but it sure felt like it. Anyway I'm sure that it will pay off when I get a job.
Lets see...that is pretty much all that I did today; fill out applications online that is.
Tonight my brother & I met the YSA at the institute to head up to the temple to do baptisms for the dead (http://mormon.org/faq/baptism-for-the-dead/#answers). The temple of course was AMAZING! It always is. It was especially cool for me b/c I was able to help out since I am endowed now.
I had a special experience. Before we actually got to the temple I was feeling a little down. We got to the institute & we sat there...barely anyone said a word to us. I decided that I was in fact a loser. (A word & status I currently dread because I've been trying to catch up on some Glee). I kept feeling that way as two guys hopped in the car with us & I could think of NOTHING to "small talk" about except for missions since one just got back about 3 months ago & one just got his call to Chile. And I kept feeling that way as the young, flirty, trendy, super hot 18 year old girls looked at me with eyes of pity when we arrived at the temple & finally introduced themselves.
Well I kept feeling this way for a little while as I got changed into my white dress & started to help out the temple workers. But then there was this girl...she had been baptized in November, engaged in April, & it was her first time coming to the temple. I was able to talk to her. I mean of course I was "Sister Fisher" came back to life for a little while. But then I was able to talk to the other girls...mostly still about my mission but it felt different then it has the past week. More like a real conversation instead of an interview. And then like the snap of a finger my confidence was back. And I realized that I am not a loser. Well maybe I am but hey i am TOTALLY okay with that! We've all got a little loser in us don't we?! Whats more I LOVE the person I have become because of my mission and I am NOT going back. And I know that it was Heavenly Father who taught me, well reminded me really, of that tonight.
Soooo I know that probably no one REALLY thinks I'm a loser...but I'm not stupid, I used to make fun of the Awkward RM's as well. So this song is for all those people out there who might think that I am loser.
Lets see...that is pretty much all that I did today; fill out applications online that is.
Tonight my brother & I met the YSA at the institute to head up to the temple to do baptisms for the dead (http://mormon.org/faq/baptism-for-the-dead/#answers). The temple of course was AMAZING! It always is. It was especially cool for me b/c I was able to help out since I am endowed now.
I had a special experience. Before we actually got to the temple I was feeling a little down. We got to the institute & we sat there...barely anyone said a word to us. I decided that I was in fact a loser. (A word & status I currently dread because I've been trying to catch up on some Glee). I kept feeling that way as two guys hopped in the car with us & I could think of NOTHING to "small talk" about except for missions since one just got back about 3 months ago & one just got his call to Chile. And I kept feeling that way as the young, flirty, trendy, super hot 18 year old girls looked at me with eyes of pity when we arrived at the temple & finally introduced themselves.
Well I kept feeling this way for a little while as I got changed into my white dress & started to help out the temple workers. But then there was this girl...she had been baptized in November, engaged in April, & it was her first time coming to the temple. I was able to talk to her. I mean of course I was "Sister Fisher" came back to life for a little while. But then I was able to talk to the other girls...mostly still about my mission but it felt different then it has the past week. More like a real conversation instead of an interview. And then like the snap of a finger my confidence was back. And I realized that I am not a loser. Well maybe I am but hey i am TOTALLY okay with that! We've all got a little loser in us don't we?! Whats more I LOVE the person I have become because of my mission and I am NOT going back. And I know that it was Heavenly Father who taught me, well reminded me really, of that tonight.
Soooo I know that probably no one REALLY thinks I'm a loser...but I'm not stupid, I used to make fun of the Awkward RM's as well. So this song is for all those people out there who might think that I am loser.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Lessons Learned
I learned some things about myself today.
One: I am a pretty good pretender. I had to go to the Doctors today to get a physical & a TB test. Since I've been gone we've gotten a new insurance plan & therefore a new doctor. A man doctor. I've never met this man before...want to freak out an RM just make her go get a physical. Not only did I have to sit in the room for like 30 minutes by myself BUT then this doctor was doing his doctor thing & checking my stomach stuff, meaning he had to touch me. I was kinda freaking out inside. And then he looks at me & goes "You look very relaxed" LOL either this guy is clueless or very sarcastic...or like I said I'm a good pretender
Two: I'm still pretty awkward. I went to institute tonight; which was fine except there were people there who expected me to talk to them! LOL I just dont know how to do small talk anymore...but I'm sure I'll get over that right?!! Please? Though I must say I know why its soo awkward for an RM to try & make small talk. We've got NO CLUE about what's been happening in the world for the past 18/24 months. All around me I hear people talking about the latest movie or their favorite new song...I don't know about any of those things so what the flip do I talk about?! My new favorite scripture?
Anyway I officially started the search for a 2nd job. I also sorted some stuff out for school; where I'll be living & such. I am looking forward to the future.
In institute tonight Brother Johnson talked a lot about trusting the the Lord. I know that if I just keep putting my trust in my Heavenly Father that He will take care of me. I feel like this entry sound like complaints but I want you all to know that I LOVE my life! The Lord has truly blessed me & all these experiences that I am having mostly I think that they are just funny but even the ones I dont I know its all just part of this ride we call life & if I just keep trusting then My Heavenly Father & Saviour Jesus Christ will make sure there is a "happily ever after" waiting for me at the end of this roller coaster!
<3 Becca Fisher
One: I am a pretty good pretender. I had to go to the Doctors today to get a physical & a TB test. Since I've been gone we've gotten a new insurance plan & therefore a new doctor. A man doctor. I've never met this man before...want to freak out an RM just make her go get a physical. Not only did I have to sit in the room for like 30 minutes by myself BUT then this doctor was doing his doctor thing & checking my stomach stuff, meaning he had to touch me. I was kinda freaking out inside. And then he looks at me & goes "You look very relaxed" LOL either this guy is clueless or very sarcastic...or like I said I'm a good pretender
Two: I'm still pretty awkward. I went to institute tonight; which was fine except there were people there who expected me to talk to them! LOL I just dont know how to do small talk anymore...but I'm sure I'll get over that right?!! Please? Though I must say I know why its soo awkward for an RM to try & make small talk. We've got NO CLUE about what's been happening in the world for the past 18/24 months. All around me I hear people talking about the latest movie or their favorite new song...I don't know about any of those things so what the flip do I talk about?! My new favorite scripture?
Anyway I officially started the search for a 2nd job. I also sorted some stuff out for school; where I'll be living & such. I am looking forward to the future.
In institute tonight Brother Johnson talked a lot about trusting the the Lord. I know that if I just keep putting my trust in my Heavenly Father that He will take care of me. I feel like this entry sound like complaints but I want you all to know that I LOVE my life! The Lord has truly blessed me & all these experiences that I am having mostly I think that they are just funny but even the ones I dont I know its all just part of this ride we call life & if I just keep trusting then My Heavenly Father & Saviour Jesus Christ will make sure there is a "happily ever after" waiting for me at the end of this roller coaster!
<3 Becca Fisher
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Mission Nerd
This morning, like every morning, the alarm went off at 6:30am. But this morning I did something I haven't done in a little over 18 months...I ignored it. Yep that's right I hit dismiss and went back to sleep for a whole extra 30 minutes! I felt like a rebel...oh man I'm a mission nerd.
This afternoon I got to talk to two of my best friends in the entire world!
They are SOOO amazing!
This afternoon I got to talk to two of my best friends in the entire world!
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| Me & Stephanie (we've been friends since like 2nd grade!) |
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| Me & Andee (my very first college roommate!) |
Then I did the unthinkable. I went to the library...BY MYSELF! It was the weirdest thing, being alone. Half of me rejoiced & the other half wanted to run back into the house in terror. But I forced myself to walk to the library & I survived (obviously). Though I did almost get hit by a car since I am used to looking "left, right, left" when trying to cross the street rather then "right, left, right". Where is a companion when you need one?! I also almost stopped a lady on the street to talk to her about the gospel...yep mission nerd.
<3 Becca Fisher
First Weekend
Well hello there everyone. So I am a little late at starting this blog...I wanted to start it with "Day One" of being an RM but with all the family and things it didn't get done so you're going to have to be satisfied with the "First Weekend"
And what an amazing weekend it has been. It started out of course at the airport where all my family were waiting for me! Everyone was crying (well just Mom & Dad & Me really) and I got to hug my brother, Matthew, for the first time in nearly three years. And I was able to meet little Sadie Rae (my niece) for the first time ever. It was a happy reunion & TOTALLY worth the 20 hours of travel that I had to do to get there! That night my Aunt Judy & Uncle Jonathon came to surprise me!
For the rest of the weekend we basically just hung out at home. We played lots of games (you'll being to see that this is a HUGE tradition in my family...playing games that is. Its like ALL we do!)
We were able to go to the Los Angeles Temple as a family & two miracles occurred. #1: I was the ONLY one who got to do the temple work for a sister from England...I know its not technically my mission but its close enough for me. #2: After the secession we were able to do some sealings and one of the first neams that was read was "Griffiths". To me it was just a little tender mercy from my Heavenly Father.
Saturday my parents threw a Homecoming Party for me & that was a lot of fun. I realized that I really am awkward!! I really didn't know what to say to anyone after the initial "How was your mission?"
And last but not least I got to Skype one of my best friends/ former roommate Kris Ward! It was SOOOO good to talk to her & see her again! This is seriously the BEST part about being home...getting to see & talk to all the people that I missed! It makes me excited to get to heaven where I can be with EVERYONE that I love!
<3 Becca Fisher
And what an amazing weekend it has been. It started out of course at the airport where all my family were waiting for me! Everyone was crying (well just Mom & Dad & Me really) and I got to hug my brother, Matthew, for the first time in nearly three years. And I was able to meet little Sadie Rae (my niece) for the first time ever. It was a happy reunion & TOTALLY worth the 20 hours of travel that I had to do to get there! That night my Aunt Judy & Uncle Jonathon came to surprise me!
For the rest of the weekend we basically just hung out at home. We played lots of games (you'll being to see that this is a HUGE tradition in my family...playing games that is. Its like ALL we do!)
We were able to go to the Los Angeles Temple as a family & two miracles occurred. #1: I was the ONLY one who got to do the temple work for a sister from England...I know its not technically my mission but its close enough for me. #2: After the secession we were able to do some sealings and one of the first neams that was read was "Griffiths". To me it was just a little tender mercy from my Heavenly Father.
Saturday my parents threw a Homecoming Party for me & that was a lot of fun. I realized that I really am awkward!! I really didn't know what to say to anyone after the initial "How was your mission?"
And last but not least I got to Skype one of my best friends/ former roommate Kris Ward! It was SOOOO good to talk to her & see her again! This is seriously the BEST part about being home...getting to see & talk to all the people that I missed! It makes me excited to get to heaven where I can be with EVERYONE that I love!
<3 Becca Fisher
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