Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Happy Ending

What a day. It started off kinda terrifying. In Spanish my professor came to me before class and asked me to give the prayer. I swear I almost died right there...so lamely I was like "Ummm I don't know how" And he was fine with that but he is definitely coming back to ask me again. To make the class even worse he had half of us writing on the board today translating what he said. Guess who got picked. Yup me. And THEN he kept picking on my answers which of course were always wrong. And sure everyone else's answers were wrong too but I don't really know what the matter with me is in that class. I have like slight panic attacks everyday because I feel like an idiot. Seriously I used to LOVE Spanish but now it just makes me feel sick to my stomach. But I'm going to my first tutor secession tomorrow so I hope it gets better.

Luckily the day got a lot better. I miss my sewing class but it was good b/c I got to sleep which I needed so bad! And I just chilled with my roommies until work and then devotional which was all about Grace! I love that topic...I wish I understood it more of course but what I really want is to study it more.

After school I did my homework & then went to Kenzine's Ultimate Frisbee game with Effie and then we went to our service brother's house for a while. I just love our service brothers. At the beginning of the semester the ward assigned us an apartment to do service for them all the time & I was like "Well that's not service if its forced" but of course as I tried to put my pride in check & do as my leaders asked charity worked its magic & they are now some of our best friends! I love when that happens.I just love spending time with them! They have a wonderful Spirit in their home and bring a wonderful Spirit into ours when they come over.

So even though the day started out rough the Lord gave me a happy ending to today! Life is great!

<3 Becca

Monday, October 1, 2012

In His Hands

So I've been meaning to write this entry for sometime but I've just been to lazy. Sad but true.

Anyway, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life right now and trying to see the Lord's hand more in my life. Surprisingly its been really easy to do that recently.

I don't know why it continues to surprise me that the Lord is going to give me exactly what i need to learn & grow & be happy & become more like Him as long as that is the desire of my heart.

So you know how I told you that all of my roommates are under 20? Weeeelll to be completely honest I wasn't all that happy about that when I first found out. I had every intention of going out and making other friends who were my age and/or just sitting in my room sulking the whole semester.

But, as usual, the Lord knew best. My roommates are the BEST! I cannot tell you how much each of them have been exactly what I needed at this time in my life. They don't even know the things that they have helped me to overcome! They all have such a strong Spirit and makes me want to be a better person when I am around them.

AND since the Lord never does things halfway not only has He given me the exact roommates that I need but He has also given us the exact friends that I need. I cannot tell you how many times we have been sitting in our apartment and one of our friends says the exact things that I need to hear at the exact time I need to hear it.

Maybe no one else can understand this post buuuttt to sum up I am grateful to the Lord for knowing & giving me what I need to grow the best rather then giving me what I want and/or think will help me grow. I'm am grateful that He knows me better then I know myself. Trusting Him & putting my life in His hands makes things so much easier.

So when things aren't going the way you think they should just remember...That's where faith comes in.

<3 Becca

Monday, September 24, 2012

Story of My Life

Man it has been such a long day! Complete with stressing over school, work, running around like a crazy woman and staring at my computer screen forever trying to fill out my advertising study guide. My eyes hurt from this screen but I got it all done.

Most exciting thing of the day: I got to meet the director of social events here on campus AND she is really excited about my groups event proposal. I'm going to be the event manager which means I'll probably get pretty close to the others that work with social events. Also I get to go on a retreat this weekend with them. It'll be fun I'm sure. Mostly I'm just excited to be doing events.

Awkward RM Moment of the day: So I have this friend named Andrew and he has a roommate named Matt. Matt is pretty cute but more then that he just really seems like a good guy. Like Joe good. And I met him for the second time last night when we went stadium singing & then he came over to our house. Then after he left Kenzie told me that Matt wants to ask me out on a date and I'm like "whoot whoot!" So of course now that I know this and I'm a little excited about it who do I see while I'm running around campus like a crazy woman trying to find someone in activities to talk to? Matt. Grrreeeaaaatt! So yeah I'm coming out of the activities office all frazzled when I hear my name. I turn around & there he is. Now not only am I frazzled but I'm embarrassed so all I can manage is a half flirtatious "heeeeyyy!" then he asks me where I'm heading. "The Library" and then we stand there. Now looking back I know that was my cue to be like "Where are you going?" buuuttt nothing came outta my mouth. So we kinda stood there awkwardly until I was like "Well I've gotta go." Yep it was awkward. Story of my life!

Welp bed time!!

<3 Becca

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Master the Tempest is Raging

So it has been SUCH a busy weekend! I worked like all day on Friday & then Kenzine, Effie & I went to a dance where we met some boys & then after we hopped in the back of one of their trucks and they took us to the haunted swings & the haunted cabin! It was so much fun! Also one of them (Steven) is super cute & was totally flirting with me.

Then after they invited us to go hiking with them on Saturday. So of course I HAVE to go since there is a cute boy going to be there even though I hate hiking. So I was really scared that I was going to make a fool outta myself & die while trying to climb this mountain. But my roommate Cathy came with us and she was pretty terrified of heights and so it was pretty slippy so she had to stop a lot which was fine with me & then when we got to the top & it was flat I was walking around that mountain like a boss. LOL The boys were pretty impressed with me. But Steven wasn't as flirtatiousness as Friday night but I decided that its fine.

Church was good today. I taught in Mission Prep call because I am an Assistant Ward Mission Leader! I am so excited for this calling! I've been assigned a companion and she & I are actually going to teach the lessons to one of the apartments in our ward! I'm so stoked for it!

Tonight we went Stadium Singing. I haven't done that in AGES! And I am glad that I did.

We sang this song & while we were the Spirit touched me how the words of this song are what the Lord has done for me!

Master, the Tempest Is Raging

1. Master, the tempest is raging!
The billows are tossing high!
The sky is o’ershadowed with blackness.
No shelter or help is nigh.
Carest thou not that we perish?
How canst thou lie asleep
When each moment so madly is threat’ning
A grave in the angry deep?

The winds and the waves shall obey thy will:
Peace, be still.
Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea
Or demons or men or whatever it be,
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean and earth and skies.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, be still; peace, be still.
They all shall sweetly obey thy will:
Peace, peace, be still.

2. Master, with anguish of spirit
I bow in my grief today.
The depths of my sad heart are troubled.
Oh, waken and save, I pray!
Torrents of sin and of anguish
Sweep o’er my sinking soul,
And I perish! I perish! dear Master.
Oh, hasten and take control!

3. Master, the terror is over.
The elements sweetly rest.
Earth’s sun in the calm lake is mirrored,
And heaven’s within my breast.
Linger, O blessed Redeemer!
Leave me alone no more,
And with joy I shall make the blest harbor
And rest on the blissful shore.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Standing Up

I know, I know...I didn't write for like the rest of the entire summer. But don't worry I know exactly what happened while I was away. It went like this:

Work, eat, sleep, repeat for 5 days, GO DANCING, church. Now repeat that for however long its been since I've posted. =]

Anyway, guess what! I am back in Rexburg! Fun right? I think yes. So the semester officially started a week and a half ago. Between classes & work I've been CRAZY busy! I'm literally on campus from 7:45am til about 4:30pm everyday. Its great fun. A nine hour day...makes me feel like I'm back on my mission.

I've got 5 roommates (of course) and they are all under 20. But they keep me from being a stick in the mud & just sitting in my room whenever I actually do get some free time.

I'm trying to think if there is anything else to really tell you...nope not really. I guess I could tell you what classes I've got.

Spanish 201: I don't remember ANYTHING from before my mish...I've started praying for the gift of tongues so I can get through this one. There's also Advertising Principles, Home Decor Sewing, Interior Design annnnddd...wait for it...Events Management! So stoked for Events. We are currently planning a huge game for campus to play near the end of the semester (more details about that later) and I am sooo excited for it. Events are truly my passion.

Oh and I'm working for parking services this semester. So basically I sit in the office & do my homework until someone with a question...or lets be honest a complaint that they got a ticket...comes along & I get to help them. I love it! I know lots of people don't like it when people are all upset and stuff like that but I kind of do. Like today there was this girl who called the office. She was all upset because she got a $50 ticket for parking where she wasn't supposed to park. Long story short she was/is NOT going to pay this ticket and she wanted me to just take it off her account. One I don't have the clearance to do that and two even if I didn't the girl has like 10 previous parking tickets she was not as dumb about parking as she made herself out to be. But also (I'm getting to why I like people yelling at me) it wouldn't be right to just let it go. She did something wrong & she has to pay the consequences, and I love the feeling of being able to stand up for what I know is the right thing! It is such a powerful feeling!

I wish that more people could feel that feeling. I wish I remembered that feeling when it comes to sticking up for my standards sometimes. I think if we all could remember that feeling of power & sound mind (see 2 Tim 1:7) then it wouldn't be so hard sometimes to be different. To say "no I'm not going to do that. I don't think that's right" But that's what being human is I guess. Forgetting those things & only thinking about what others will think of us.

I'm going to make it a goal to always remember the feelings I get when I stand up for what is right when I'm in that critical moment & despite my fears I'm going to stand up for whats right. You're all probably good at this already but feel free to join me! =]

<3 Becca

Thursday, July 19, 2012

I'll Be There Soon!

Today Rexburg is calling my name. Its only a little over a month before I go but I find myself longing for "the bubble" and the security it brings. It might have something to do with my need for change about every six months. I know it hasn't been 6 months since a big changed happened but the mission got me used to at least some type of change every 6 weeks and its definitely been longer then that.
Beautiful Rexburg

Maybe its because Rexburg provides a never ending supply of social life that I seem to be lacking in here. Not that I was all that social before my mission, but it was easier to pretend that I was.

Maybe its because sometimes, like today, I feel like I'm playing the waiting game. Hanging out at home waiting for school to start. Feels like I'm just waiting around for real life to start again. I've got bunches & bunches of plans but they all kinda rely on my graduating in April.

I know what you're all thinking. Live in the moment Becca. Enjoy the relaxing summer while you can; it only gets crazier from here. I've never been a "live in the moment" type person. I always worry about the past & the future. I'm working on it.

I know that I could feel totally different tomorrow & be in love with California again. I also know that I will definitley feel different when I see the 1st snowfall come winter & I'll be thinking "why the heck did I ever leave sunny Southern California" But for tonight...keep calling Rexburg, I'll be there soon!

<3 Becca

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Opening Doors!

So I know, I know nothing from me for like a lot of days & then two posts in one day. I just wanted to say; you know what I said about the whole "when you have the faith to close a window Heavenly Father opens a door for you." Well just so you all know...yep He opens doors!!

Also for all you new RMs out there (I know quite a few that got home today). Taking a leap of faith & going to activities that might scare you a wee bit because you feel awkward totally pays off! I did that tonight & guess what...a boy asked for my number! whoot whoot! A small nevertheless awesome tender mercy!

<3 Becca